IN CONVERSATION WITH THE ORIGINAL REBEL
by Chrissy Iley
Elle-UK is on newsstands now.
Fashion is
having a rebel moment. But long before
maverick icons Grace Jones in black rubber, Courtney Love in ripped tights and
lace, and Chrissie Hynde who cut her own hair and never removed her leather
jacket, there was Stevie Nicks. ‘My
whole life is a rebellious moment,’ she laughs – a long, throaty,
mocking-the-world-laugh.
The look she
invented for herself in the early Seventies was part Dickensian waif in raggedy
chiffon and heavy boots, party romantic gypsy.
At first, this came from her own wardrobe, but she later developed
costumes with Californian designer Margi Kent.
They made her look as if she inhabited an imaginary world of birds of
paradise and fairies, but they were highly practical on stage: a leotard here, a
floaty skirt and fringed scarf there. It
is a look that still works for her now – deliberately so. ‘I planned to still
be doing this when I’m 60. I wanted to
make sure that what I wore then, I could wear at any age,’ she says. I suggest she should have started her own
label. ‘I thought of doing a fashion line, but there would be a lot of work
involved. I don’t have time.’ It’s a
shame, as I’d certainly shop there. My
entire wardrobe is stuffed with tops named Stevie. The black Stevie, the grey Stevie, the
shimmery Stevie.
At 65, she’s
still rocking the Stevie, too-today’s is wispy and black. I am in something
almost identical, which she admires, examining the label so she can buy the
same. This makes me very happy. I have always loved Stevie – her look,
mystical fairy meets ethereal temptress; her voice raw, rippled with
emotion. I love her fearlessness and I
love the drama of her falling in love with so many rock stars.
This is
actually the third time we have met.
Today, we are sitting in a giant London hotel suite, decorated in muted
and minimalist beige and grey – somewhat at odds with Stevie, who is most
definitely maximalist. In the flesh she
looks amazing – her hair still in thick, dirty-blonde cascades, her skin flawless. Her books, drawings and clothes are
everywhere. She is here to promote the
European leg of the reformed Fleetwood Mac tour – that they can still sell out
stadiums (a total of 81 arena dates worldwide, in fact) almost 40 years after
she joined the band is testament to the enduring power of their music, much of
which Stevie wrote or co-wrote.
Clearly, I
am not her only superfan. Forceful women
love her and want to channel her – the goddess persona, the voice, the look.
Courtney Love is especially obsessed.
When I visited the first lady of grunge at home, I spotted a Stevie
shrine sitting next to her Buddha shrine.
The fact that Stevie Nicks has lived a thousand lives makes her a great
dispenser of advice – her great friend Sheryl Crow phones when I am sitting
there. She knows how to feel deeply, how
to ache, and also knows how to cauterise that pain with a great song.
Since we
first met in 2009, she has changed very little.
She is always vibrant – her laugh, which starts as a low growl and
heightens if she says something particularly hilarious, is exactly the
same. If she talks about something sad,
she seems to feel it only in that moment, then quickly moves on. Perhaps it’s this lack of baggage that means
her face is plump, line-free and porcelain, although she attributes it to good
genes. ‘I got my dad’s beautiful
skin. But it’s also tough skin. He lived in Arizona and he was out in the sun
all day.’ She smiles. The metaphor is deliberate. She has sensitive but tough skin.
Her relative
lack of wrinkles can also be attributed to sun avoidance. ‘I stopped laying out
in the sun when I was 30. Probably
because we were doing drugs all night long and I was sleeping all day.’ Now, she slaps on the most expensive skin care
she can find. ‘I use Crème de la mer at
night. I can afford it. Plus, I never go to bed with make-up on and I do a
little massage thing two or three times a day.’
She demonstrates by gently slapping her own face.
Botox is a
no-go after a bad experience. ‘I did it in 2003, 10 days before Fleetwood Mac
filmed Live in Boston. My eyebrows fell like this.’ She stretches them down and
turns down her mouth like a revers smiley. ‘I would never do it again. It’s an
ugly thing that changes your beautiful eyes. I looked like the sister of Satan.’
She talks
quickly but regales stories at length, chronicling her life, album by album, and
talking about relationships as if they were started to better serve her
songs. Born in Arizona, her family later
moved to San Francisco, and during her senior year in high school she met a
brooding and Byronic Lindsey Buckingham.
He was in a folk group, she was already writing songs – together, they
formed a duo, Buckingham Nicks, and put out a record of the same name. It caught the attention of Mick Fleetwood,
who, on New Year’s Eve 1974, invites them to join the already-successful
Fleetwood Mac. The chemistry and dynamic
of Fleetwood, plus the two couples – John and Christine McVie, Buckingham and
Nicks – was explosive. When Nicks and
Buckingham left their low-key life to move to LA and join the band, it must
have felt like joining the circus. Or at
least a soap opera. There were drugs,
there was sex, there were feuds. Stevie
and Lindsey broke up while recording their Grammy-winning 1977 album Rumours,
but the band didn't split. The lyrics
about love, losing it and finding it, became all the more emotive, making the
album one of the biggest-selling of all time.
But I've always thought her song was Landslide, which seems particularly
poignant now. ‘Well, I've been afraid of changing / Cause I've built my life
around you / But time makes you bolder / Children get older / I’m getting older
too.’
She has
earned $7 million from that song alone – and, as she wrote or co-wrote many
other Fleetwood Mac songs, plus all her solo albums, Stevie’s estimated worth
is now $65 million. The first time we
met, four years ago at her home in Pacific Palisades, LA – enclave for
superstars and the super-rich-she was clutching an envelope containing her
latest royalty cheque. So this year’s
reforming of the band certainly isn't driven by cash – at least not for
her. However, as Mick Fleetwood went
bankrupt in the 1980’s, she says, ‘He could certainly use the money.’
Her house
was large and comfortable, but perhaps less ornate than you’d expect. The art on the walls had a mystical bent and the
bedroom was draped in silks and taffetas.
Her walk-in dressing room was filled with lace and lingerie. It smelled of perfume, at the same time woody
and floral. Into the giant American
kitchen that looked like it had been cooked in, scampered Sulamith, a tiny Yorkshire
terrier in a blue knitted coat. Her assistant
informed me in a concerned tone that Stevie had thought her dog suffered from
alopecia. Only after spending thousands
on therapy in the belief it was caused by stress, did she find out that a
Chinese crested dog, an entirely bald breed, had taken a fancy to Sulamith’s mother. The frisky pair produced this Chinese Yorkie,
whose face is framed with a golden brown fringe, much like Stevie’s.
Stevie was
not embarrassed at all by this.
Actually, she’s not embarrassed by anything. She doesn’t do regrets, living completely in
the moment. After all, if she thought too
much about it, she may not have had the roll call of rock-star lovers that were
in the same band. If she felt
passionate, she just went for it, not caring about shredded egos and imploding
friendships.
Breaking up
with Buckingham but still having to write songs with him in Fleetwood Mac must
have felt like a strange sort of incest.
He wrote Go Your Own way about her and she is still writing songs about
him. ‘The beginning of our relationship
was the best time of our lives. Still, in every song I write there’s a line or
two about Lindsey. He is my great
musical love. He is like Johnny Cash to
my June Carter. You can get to a state
of mind where you can be happy, but it will always be difficult. You can find a good thing and you can be sad
that you can’t be together.’ They always
knew how to wind each other up, she says.
Still do. ‘I just don’t think we will ever be friends,’ she
concludes. And yet they will have spent
almost every day together for the best part of this year.
Life could
have been very different if they’d stayed together in San Francisco playing
folk clubs. ‘I ironed his jeans and sewed moons and stars on them, and made the
house beautiful. I was the cleaning
lady. Then we joined Fleetwood Mac and
moved to LA and he became very jealous.
I was trustworthy but he didn’t trust me, so he tortured me every day
until I ended up having an affair.’
That affair
was with another man called Lindsay, who worked in a friend’s restaurant. Then there was Mick Fleetwood. She says it wasn’t out of revenge that she
started the affair – they just fell in love.
He left her for a friend called Sara.
It was a powerhouse woman move to fall in love with two members of the
same group – as if she wanted to prove to herself that her love is stronger
than any band. And then she did it again
with two members of the Eagles – Don Henley and Joe Walsh – in the early 1980’s. ‘Joe was a big rock star. Maybe he was the love of my life. Although I change who I think were the great
loves of my life all the time.’
She and
Walsh were together from 1983-1986. They
did not write songs together – they took drugs.
‘I don’t know what my relationship with Joe would have been like
sober. I remember days of misery waiting
by the phone; me in my house, with him saying, “I’m going to visit you.” I
would kick everyone out because I just wanted to be with him, and not a phone
call, nothing.’ Why did she put up with it – she was one of the biggest female
stars in the world? ‘Because I was in
love with him,’ she says in an isn't that-obvious tone. ‘I wouldn't now. But we were doing a lot of drugs and drugs
make you needy.’ She pauses. ‘And who
wants needy?’
She tells me
about one day when Joe put the phone down on her and she thought they had just
broken up. The next day, she went to see
the Eurythmics and Dave Stewart asked if she had a boyfriend. ‘I said no. So
Dave Stewart came back to my house and we spent the night together. But the next morning, I panicked. I threw him out of the bed and I started
dressing him. All this leather! All these chains that I was threading
through!’
She and Joe
did get back together, but he disappeared for good a few months later. ‘He told my friend he’d gone to Australia
because he’s a coward. He said, “Tell Stevie I’m going because both of us are
doing so much coke that one of us is going to die.” She was left broken-hearted – and, thanks to
her addiction, with a hole in her nose so big that, legend has it, she could
loop a belt through it. This, she says,
is not quite true, but ‘If I wanted to put a gold ring through it I could. A gold ring with diamonds!’ She was addicted
to cocaine for around a decade – Fleetwood Mac’s album credits famously feature
a ‘thanks’ to their dealer – and she has estimated she spent over $1 million on
the drug.
If it hadn't been for Joe dumping her, she would never had ended up getting clean in the
Betty Ford Center in Palm Springs in 1986.
When she came out, friends avoided cocaine around her – ‘I thought that
whole world had stopped but it turns out they were just being respectful’ – and
some persuaded Stevie to see a doctor to keep her sober. She now dearly wishes they hadn't He kept upping my dose and I was shaking so
hard, I thought I had Parkinson’s.’ One day, she made her assistant take the
pills so she could see the effects and the assistant passed out, so she came
off the drugs immediately, checking herself into hospital. ‘I stayed there for
47 days. It made the cocaine detox look like a walk in the park. But I came out the other end shining, with a
new lease on life.’
Those years
took their toll though – Stevie says she lost most of her 40’s, and some of her
looks, to the drug. ‘Eight years of my life gone, my last vestige of youth
ripped away. At least I still had a
brain with coke.’ Her hair turned grey
and her weight ballooned to 12 stone – she’s only 5ft 1in. She was also robbed of her last child-bearing
years. One wonders if the overindulged with
its extensive wardrobe and therapy is a maternal outlet.
Stevie seems
to have changed her mind about having children throughout her life. She once said, ‘If I were to get pregnant, I
would have to stop being an over-achiever, get more rest, eat well, take my
vitamins.’ But she also told me, ‘I don’t regret never having children because
I wanted this life. I would have been
jealous if my baby had to be turned over to a succession of nannies. I suppose I didn't want to give up my career.’
Her maternal
instincts perhaps peaked when her best friend Robin Snyder died of Leukaemia in
1982, leaving behind tow-day-old baby Matthew.
She married Robin’s husband Kim Anderson in the hope that they could
recreate a family unit but the marriage was dissolved a few months later. She now calls the whole thing ‘insanity’, and
says her friend would not have wanted Stevie to break her widower’s heart.
She says she
could have had her own family with Lindsey if they’d stayed in San Francisco. ‘Lindsey
just wanted a nice woman and children.
If we had not pursued our career, we could have made it as a
couple. He would sometimes say, “I don’t
care how much money we made or how famous we were. All Fleetwood Mac did was break us up and
that was the thing I held most dear.’”
Was that the
thing she held most dear? ‘No,’ she says, perhaps a little too quickly. ‘I
really am happy. I love my life. I made a choice a long time ago about what
was going to be most important and that was my music and my art. My life’s been a dream come true but still, I
always look to the future. And I think
my life is going to be way beyond anything I've done now.’
So many typos!
ReplyDeleteI don't care about typos; I can see past typos. Just happy I got to read the story this early..
ReplyDeleteOh Stevie, how I love you.......
ReplyDeleteShe smiles
ReplyDeleteDoes anyone know which hotel she's staying in??
ReplyDeleteWhere ever they allow dogs.
ReplyDeleteDoes that mean that all of the FM members are staying in London??
ReplyDelete"She...regales stories at length, chronicling her life, album by album, and talking about relationships as if they were started to better serve her songs." ....So why not put some of her words in here rather than have the writer of this article running on about their own musings on Stevie? And rehashing history we all have read a hundred times before already. I don't get music writers these days!
ReplyDeleteI love Stevie! Just want to sit and talk with her is my dream.
ReplyDeleteWho cares about typos! Thanks to Nickslive/this site for typing it up!
ReplyDeleteDo you REALLY think the only thing Stevie has had is sunscreen and Creme De la Mer? C'mon! Why not fess up like so many have and admit she's had some work done? Or does she not age like us mere mortals?
ReplyDeleteShe had been very honest about botched botox and boob jobs, why wouldn't she admit any other work? Honestly it's pEople like you that make me want to spit nails. Always gotta be at least one hater
DeleteI've seen her in person close-up in restaurants in LA and I can promise you she hasn't had work done.
ReplyDeleteShe looks really great, but definitely looks like she's in her 60's - but also definitely hasn't had any surgery done.
She hasn't had work done, beyond the disappointing botox results, and a boob job that had to be removed. Stop being a pill.
ReplyDeleteStevie has always been a natural beauty, why wouldn't that continue into her later years. She uses good makeup and lighting to help enhance, but her real beauty comes from inside.
ReplyDeleteCan't people tell when work has been done? I don't think she's had anything done. If you look at her mother's face, she looks like she has nice skin also.
ReplyDeleteFrom reading this article I am sadden as it appears Stevie has chosen to live a life that never really lets anyone in except her music.
ReplyDeleteOh she let's people in; trouble is they don't stay in because they end up taking a backseat to something else in her life, be it music, drugs, or other commitments. Still, she's living her life on her terms, and answers to no one. In a way, it's a sacrifice because if she were giving all of the energy to a man, we probably would not have the beautiful music that she's given to the world. ~ <3 ~
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